Archive for October, 2011


Many times in life I find myself exactly where I want to be. Maybe I should have higher standards or perhaps society has just placed the bar too low but there are certain points in my existence when I can’t help but realize life cannot get much better at that moment. The unfortunate event to come is when I have this feeling for too long. It may seem paradoxical but it is detrimental for me to always feel I have accomplished my goals.Complacency is one of the big things I have trouble with and though it is quite contradictory, the feeling of being behind is actually very beneficial. I tend to get too comfortable with my friends, organizations, and schoolwork and in turn don’t work half as hard as I did starting out the relationship or term or whatever it may be. I regret enough to know the valuable gift of just forgetting once in a while and starting from scratch. Occasional reality checks help me revert back to what I used to be and what I always should be. Someone striving to get ahead in last place.


Soundslide Project

I’ve never really been one to dwell on the past, or for that matter acknowledge the past, but sometimes moments in life occur that are a little harder to forget than others. Sometimes these moments make you reevaluate everything you’ve ever done. This happened to me recently and I was faced with a problem of remorse for lost actions. Then I started thinking about the big picture. I don’t appreciate enough the kind of life I live and am ashamed of how I take this for granted sometimes. I don’t deserve the quality of friends I have or the kind of family I have and I need to take time out of my day more to truly appreciate the gifts I have in my life. If everything were to end tomorrow for me would I be satisfied with the way I’ve lived life? At this current moment I’d definitely say no to that statement. Maybe it takes major events like these to keep us all in check emotionally. Maybe there’s benefit to every little thing that happens. This little blog post is just an attempt to make others think about the blessings they have in their lives and how lucky we all really are to be alive at all. From this point on I’m not wasting it.