Archive for May, 2012


Finals week in college is a magical time of the season. The time when sleep schedules are irrelevant and showering becomes a conditional daily occurrence. The time when being in a terrible mood is permissible and bloodshot eyes are the norm. It’s a period where you can walk around at 4 in the morning and expect to find thousands of other mostly sober strangers following suit. It’s a semester’s worth of pressure rolled into less than 100 hours and it honestly makes me feel alive. I’ve learned many things about myself over my finals weeks and seen the limits of my mental stamina. I’ve realized just how much sleep I need to function and how little food I really need to survive. I’ve learned how to focus my complete attention on something yet have no idea what I’m doing at the same time. I’ve learned to listen to music while zoning it out entirely.The balance of oxymorons in this small frame of time is summed up by what a friend of mine told me once; finals week is about dying just enough to survive. Though this year’s finals week is coming to a close I will miss it in some ways. Only when I’m almost dead have a felt this alive.


How to find love

It is thought that in order to find that special someone, one must blindly go out into the world and exasperatingly search until one day out of the blue they luckily find a person that can stand to be with them. What people don’t realize is love is not only a stimulant, but a byproduct of happiness. One can be completely miserable and that special someone can bring them out of their funk, but what’s the appeal of being with someone who is unhappy with being themselves? If someone can find happiness in enjoying who they are as a person and indulging in passions that bring them joy, love will be found through these passions. So go out and do the things you love and worry about the love of others once you have perfected an appreciation and love for yourself.

Anticipation for an event in life is far greater than actually experiencing the event. All the feelings of anxiety, fear, doubt, and giddiness consume our lives far more than the actual events that come as the result of action. This being said it is almost more important for humans to feel rather than to do. Anticipation can also determine the extremity of feeling after this event has subsided. Oh you didn’t care to study much for that test? Then it is not inherently important to you and will not affect your emotional well-being too catastrophically. But the next time you poured your heart and soul into that textbook and aced the exam? The feelings after the test will differ a little from its precedent. Anticipation is the cause of almost all feelings whether they be happy or sad. Obviously the result of an event can make someone unexpectedly feel an emotion but anticipation gives a person the chance to insert an emotion into an uncharted path. If someone has never done a certain thing in life, then they still feel the need to put an emotion behind it without the experience. The process of learning to handle anticipation is the process of learning to handle maturity.